Long Trouble

I don't know what I wannna write here, but I just know that I am in very  disarray. Sometime I feel that my life is the most terrible and sometimes the most happy. I know every single second I have is gonna make me crazy of this. I have no place where I can fall all these. I just sit down and fancy that I am useless. Being careless sometime makes me feel worse in daily, but I know that I avoid it hard. Sharing to my friends sometime can help me in solving a piece of my terrible problems, but in the other hand I don't wanna make others bother becase of me too. So I just write here what I wanna say.
Dju kow that Januari 6th '12 is the day when  I never forget about this. I know than I am very careles but for that day I do hate my life and my self. I can't tell what is my problem exactly, but I just wanna say that on that day I must get badly i touch with the Security and Police in the different place and time on taht day. I do really hate that. I am going stress whenever I remember that day and what happen to me. It's very  abominable and vex.
hhuhhhh, I must take a breath for all this,
All in all I just realize that each problem I have abviously makes me more adult to face the future. I just thank to God for everything I got.
one things for me I hope that U also can make Ur story like what I made here...